The Big L Word

So can I start off by saying how cliche this subject is for this weekend, but of course love is on everyone's mind for Valentine's Day. The single girls remaining proud while singing to Beyonce's "Single Ladies" or perhaps some Elliot Smith cursing their ex and/or wondering why their single. While couples are going out to romantic dinner, the ladies showered with flowers and candies that they won't eat because they want to keep the figure that keeps their boyfriend sticking around.

I was totally fine on being single this day, until I strolled into work. Serving bright eyed couples was not my idea of a ideal Valentine's Day. I feel I must throw in a disclaimer at this point in my post.

 NOTE: IAM NOT A MANHATER NOR AM I JEALOUS OF OTHERS.

In fact I am happy for others to see them in love. But something just got to me this year. I think its because for the first time in awhile I am somewhat tired of being single. Of getting ready and "looking for boys". There are only so many nights you can go out with your friends and come home with someone or not. And I've been doing it for the past 5 or so years. Yet again I'm a very independent person and do not settle for just anybody, in fact I think thats why I've been single for so long. I guess it didn't help that I went to see Valentine's Day with a girlfriend which was cheesy to say that least (I mean that title screams mushy).

I find it wierd that I have been pushed to this point to publicly express these feelings because Iam not an openly emotional person. And please do not write comment telling me how beautiful Iam and how the right guy is out there. Iam perfectly (exaggeration) but Iam confident in who Iam and how I look. Just saying at this point I'm looking for something different. Maybe I'll find it soon Maybe I won't.


Amanda Blank "A Love Song":